From my experience, members of the Catholic faith are not very familiar with their faith and do not feel close to God. This web site was created to help those who feel lost or stagnant in their faith.
Are we to believe that there are no new revelations or experiences with God outside of the church? And what about the time long ago before the church or any religion existed? Are we to believe God wasn't present among us and helping us? There are truths in every religion and even in our primitive science.
This site will present information and ideas that may be hard to hear and sound foreign, but will bring you closer to God.
I have been Catholic for a long time. A few years ago I kept wondering, is this all there is to life? Wake up, go to work, pay bills, go home, go to bed, go to Mass on Sundays, etc.
It was then that I started to explore other faiths, world history, consciousness, and metaphysics to find out how it all started and the reasons behind everything that exists.
In June of 2015, I started reading every spiritual book I could find starting with those that deal with actual recorded facts and reality. I started researching phenomena like the classic double-slit experiment and variations of it and other fields like consciousness that scientists still can't explain.
I found that I needed to un-learn everything in order to re-learn new concepts. Amazing things started to happen in my life and to me and I have never been more happy and felt closer to God than at this time!
I have presented a list below of the books, in the order I read them, that I feel were the most important in my journey and which helped to form my new beliefs. Some of the books can be heard on audible.com.
Feel free to contact me with any questions. The contact form is located at the bottom of the page.
1 - The Holographic Universe: The Revolutionary Theory of Reality - Michael Talbot
2 - E-Squared: Nine Do-It-Yourself Energy Experiments That Prove Your Thoughts Create Your Reality -- Audible - Pam Grout
3 - Journeys Out of the Body -- Audible - Robert Monroe
4 - Far Journeys -- Audible - Robert Monroe
5 - Ultimate Journey -- Audible - Robert Monroe
6 - The Power of Now -- Audible - Eckhart Tolle
7 - Edgar Cayce on Angels, Archangels, and the Unseen Forces - Robert J. Grant
8 - The Intention Experiment: Using Your Thoughts to Change Your Life and the World -- Audible - Lynne McTaggart
9 - Edgar Cayce on the Akashic Records: The Book of Life -- Audible - Kevin J. Todeschi
10 - The Field: The Quest for the Secret Force of the Universe -- Audible - Lynne McTaggart
11 - The Light Between Us: Stories From Heaven. Lessons for the Living. - Audible - Laura Lynne Jackson
12 - Lives of the Master: The Rest of the Jesus Story - Glenn Sanderfur
13 - The Jesus Trilogy: Choice and Will / Love and Surrender / Beliefs, Emotions, and the Creation of Reality - Audible - Gina Lake
14 - Jesus, Interrupted: Revealing the Hidden Contradictions in the Bible - Bart D. Ehrman
15 - Tao Te Ching - Lao Tzu
16 - Between Death and Life: Conversations with a Spirit - Audible - Dolores Cannon
17 - Your Soul's Plan: Discovering the Real Meaning of the Life You Planned Before You Were Born - Audible - Robert Schwartz
18 - The Convoluted Universe: Book 1 - Dolores Cannon
19 - The Legend of Starcrash - Dolores Cannon
20 - The Bhagavad Gita - Eknath Easwaran
21 - The Kybalion: A Study of Hermetic Philosophy of Ancient Egypt and Greece - The Three Initiates
22 - The Emerald Tablet of Hermes - Hermes Trismegistus
23 - They Walked with Jesus - Dolores Cannon
24 - Jesus and the Essenes - Dolores Cannon
25 - Keepers of the Garden -- Audible - Dolores Cannon
26 - The Convoluted Universe: Book 2 - Dolores Cannon
27 - I Am the Word: A Guide to the Consciousness of Man's Self in a Transitioning Time - Paul Selig
28 - The Convoluted Universe: Book 3 - Dolores Cannon
29 - The Book of Mastery -- Audible - Paul Selig
30 - The Only Planet of Choice - Phyllis Schlemmer
31 - The Book of Truth - Audible - Paul Selig
32 - Gnosticism: From Nag Hammadi to the Gospel of Judas -- Audible - The Great Courses
33 - The Holy Science - Swami Sri Yukteswar
34 - The Four Agreements - Audible - Don Miguel Ruiz
35 - The Urantia Book - Multiple Authors
36 - The Convoluted Universe: Book 4 - Dolores Cannon
A new understanding
God is all. God exists in all and works through all regardless of your beliefs. God is not and will never be separate from us. I believe the primary reason for creation was for Him to seek expression through experience in all forms of being and to share that knowledge and the Love of being and existing with us. The experiences of His creation is what we bring back to God as gifts when we return as referenced in Matthew 25 where the master gave the talents to the servants and expected a return. This is not to say this is the only reason for creation.
What we call our souls are tiny sparks of energy or spirit emanating from God constantly coming and going and seeking expression through experience in all levels of creation. A soul can have one form or be broken up into thousands of individualized and distinct personalities all experiencing any level of creation simultaneously, also called reincarnation. To return to God, all parts of a soul must be rejoined to become whole again. Each cluster of personalities in a soul knows themselves to be ONE.
Each soul cluster is joined to every other soul cluster that it influenced or shared experiences with during its time of existence.
Humans know creation to be our physical universe. We know things are made of atoms and they vibrate and are constantly in motion.
Each level of creation vibrates at a different frequency. The highest level is pure Love and at one with God. There are other planes, dimensions, unlimited universes, etc. Two dimensions can occupy the same “space” at the same “time” and each will only be perceived by the beings on the same level of vibration. Since each higher dimension vibrates at a higher rate, this affects how lower dimensions are viewed on a human time scale. A billion years can be seen as a second by God. I think this is progressive as higher levels of consciousness and being are achieved.
From the different aspects of God, came different spirits, angels, and energies that helped in creation. There are realms where spirits or souls are given complete freedom to express their creative powers. They know that all comes from God and are always connected to God. These energies or spirits were given freedom to use their expressive power to create universes, dimensions, planets, etc. Since they were created with Love and in direct communion with God, they are good. They worked in union with God to create our universe and planets and earth. I believe that each universe is a unique creative expression of the spirit or energy that created it and God allows this to happen since it is all good.
As for the human race, I believe that at earth has been visited and populated for at least a few million years on and off. Higher level beings brought plant and animal life to this planet according to what would survive and flourish in its specific environment. At a certain point in its evolution, higher level beings added their DNA to the most advanced humanoids at that time which were Neanderthals. This would explain the sudden appearance of homo sapiens.
Higher level beings, guides, etc. were allowed to come to earth to guide the humans in everything from agriculture to technology.
We perceive thoughtforms as “matter” in our 3 dimensional space because our senses are tuned to receive a very limited range of vibrations. What we see as matter is only brought into our existence at the moment of perception by collapsing the waveforms of potentiality from the very limited range our senses can perceive by consciousness. I believe consciousness is a type of energy given to us in order to observe our level of existence and being. A tool used by all life at all levels to observe and interpret creation. Once we use consciousness to observe "matter", we inform the potential waves with information which is used to form the "matter" we expect to exist! These waveforms make up every perceivable level of creation, are available to all creating beings, and allow us to be creators of our reality in the same way as our “Father” who was and is The Original Creator.
All other parts of our 3 dimensional universe that aren’t individually created remain in existence first because of the “will” of God and secondly because of agreements we keep in our group consciousness before and after manifesting in our physical bodies.
All of creation is always in a state of motion and vibration. Scientists have yet to describe matter and what constitutes matter. As they look deeper into matter down into the quantum states, they realize that at a certain level, everything is connected and is only vibration.
The ego is the false sense of self that is individualized from the soul to experience physical reality and the structure of duality. This whole construct is the ultimate learning tool since the ego does not remember its source and constantly tries to maintain its existence and sense of uniqueness. The ego is unaware of its source and gets lost easily in the duality of good or evil, hot or cold, light or dark, love or hate, etc which is always in conflict.
I believe the Bible is actually describing the ego when it talks about the fall of the angels and the fall of Adam and Eve. Adam and Eve were originally created as souls and could be perceived as pure light beings as are most spirits or souls. After the “fall”, their egos took over and they realized they were naked, where that thought never occurred before.
I believe in the Trinity of God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit. From these 3 eternal aspects, come all other spirits, souls, energies, etc.
I believe that the man Jesus came from a master soul that has been with God since the beginning as one of his eternal Sons. Jesus’ soul had many incarnations on earth to try and guide humans on the correct way to love and serve God. His final earthly incarnation as Jesus was the final and perfect incarnation as the “The Way” to live and treat others. It’s not coincidental that the early church was called “The Way” by the apostles.
I don’t believe that Jesus is God’s ONLY begotten Son. This is clearly stated in the Old Testament and was never proclaimed by Jesus. I believe that at a certain time in Jesus’ life, he fully “realized” himself to be in the second aspect of God, God the Son, and was therefore truly the Christ aspect or energy. He even taught that if others followed his ways, they would be able to do the things he does and perform miracles as he says in John 14, “Amen, amen I say to you, he that believeth in me, the works that I do, he also shall do; and greater than these shall he do.”
I believe that the Bible contains some divinely inspired truths. We only have 8 original manuscripts of the 27 total New Testament books. Even if we had all original books, most books were not written by the original author of each book! They were written by someone else stating they were that person! On top of that, they were all written 30 to 100 years after Jesus died. If we are to believe that the entire Bible is the inerrant and inspired word of God, why are there so many mistakes and discrepancies? Here is a list of a few of the contradictions in the Bible. What about the many books that didn't make it into the canon of the Bible? What other non-Catholic books contain divine revelation or at least some truths not present in the Bible. The Bible itself even states that it doesn't contain everything and the church reaffirms this in the fact that it relies on the Bible and Sacred Tradition for its truths.
I believe that God reveals his mysteries and pieces of His plan throughout history to many different races and cultures via different methods; not all that are written down. Revelation of his mysteries and plan never stopped and are continuing to this day in different forms.
The creation story in the Bible has been put into terms that the human mind can comprehend and accept. I do not believe that the god described in the Old Testament is the one True God that created everything. God is not confined to his own creation and is not subject to it. Because of this, He doesn’t get jealous or angry since these emotions come from fear. God is not fearful of Himself! God does not love one race of people more than others! God will not kill his own creation as in the flood. Does it make sense that since God is not bound by time, he would create humans knowing that they would forget where they came from, perform all kinds of “evil” acts, and then have to destroy them? This sounds like something a lower entity or being would do who the humans thought was god.
Catholic teachings no longer relevant:
• Sin separates us from God – This is the most harmful teaching of the church. Because of this teaching, I believe that when most people think they sin, they are totally separate from God. This can lead to their thinking of further separation from God and creates fear. Fear is the opposite of Love and causes all other conflict.
• Jesus was the only Son of God – I believe there are other Sons of God who are eternally one with God and may rule over other planes, dimensions, universes, etc. There is no conflict or competition in union with God since there is only one divine plan.
• Mary is the Mother of God - Mary is not the Mother of the one eternal God. Mary’s human body was the mother of Jesus’ human body so it can be said that Mary is the Mother of a Son of God in human form. Both Jesus’ and Mary’s souls were created by God the Father and existed before they incarnated. Personality identification is only sought outside of the union with God, therefore external titles are not necessary since God is all and all are one with God and seek no external glory.
• Perpetual virginity – I believe Mary had other sons and daughters and believe this, in no way, detracts from her role as the Mother of Jesus. The Bible and other sources state that Jesus had brothers.
I don’t believe in sin. I think sin was created as a means to justify the church’s continued existence and reliance. This is another harmful teaching that further separates us from God. I do believe in positive and negative energies. When a person identifies himself with his ego, he is continuing in the negative energy. This builds up karma, which is talked about later. If a person understands these things, he already understands what choices his soul would make versus his ego and is therefore able to determine how to stay on a positive path to repay his karma.
What people refer to as Heaven is pure Love and returning to unity with God and can be experienced when all the soul fragments are rejoined and the soul is reintegrated back into God bringing with it all the gifts of its experience of creation.
I do believe there are planes, dimensions, etc. that are a lower vibration than even earth. The further you get away from God, the lower your vibration. These existences are totally real to the beings that exist in them and would seem to last for eternity since time seems to move slower there. They were created out of fear and I believe beings or souls that believe in them or were sent there have to learn the lessons required to release that negative karma. I do believe that negative entities or energies can also influence us in our spirit or human incarnation.
Death and the After Life
Upon physical death, the primary goal is to rejoin your soul. You still maintain all beliefs and thoughts, but since you have creative abilities in the spiritual planes, you can manifest your fears or beliefs. Those who hold certain beliefs will go to those belief system territories. They can reside there for eons or a short period of “time”. This explains people of different faiths experiencing the results of their beliefs in near death experiences.
When a person identifies himself with his ego, he is continuing in the negative energy. This builds up karma, which is an imbalance in your soul’s energy and the sum of a person’s actions in all of their states of existence. A being who is subject to karma must reincarnate in spirit or physical until the lessons are learned and understood by the soul.
What is going to happen?
At some point in humanity's future, there will come a time when humanity's consciousness along with the earth's consciousness has risen to a point that a new earth will split off from the old earth to a higher dimension. This will be the first time it has ever happened that a whole planet will do this. This is what is referred to by Protestants and other religions as the rapture and is the reason there are so many beings on the earth at this time!
Our consciousness will then enable us to realize and understand that we are part of God and want to do God's will. Humans have always been trying to evolve and we have had teachers throughout the ages trying to help. The most important teacher being Jesus. At that point, those who are ready to move to the new earth will do so and it will appear that they either died or disappeared. It doesn't mean that those left on the old earth are evil, just that they weren't ready in their evolution to shift their consciousness. They will in time as will all other beings.
God wants to share His love and creation with us for eternity.
Be kind to each other.
Help each other.
Love each other.